Things I love about Fall

1. Cooler Weather
   
2. Scarfs
3. Pumpkins
4. Candy Corn
5. Pumpkin Bread
6. Colored Leaves
7. Light weight jackets
8. October Birthdays : )
   
9. Boots
10. Smaller energy bill!

Here is to hope that this blog post will send good vibes towards the weather and grant us our fall wishes!!

My Kids

OK so I do not have kids of my own BUT after becoming a full time dance teacher this year all my kids that I see every week have transformed into "my kids." I look forward to seeing my kids each week, listening to the stories they have to tell me, and it is always a good day when I get self portrait drawings of myself from my kids. They never cease to amuse me.

This is what I look like apparently to one of my four year olds. Pretty entertaining.

I have to admit I am a fan of the MTV "Teen Mom." Tonight's finale episode got the water works going when one of the Mom's Caitlynn was reunited with her daughter a year after giving her up for adoption. Although she was sixteen when she made the decision, I feel like she was very grown up and mature with her decision because she herself knew she could not provide what this child deserved. Her reunion with her daughter really brought to attention to the fact on how children can effect and alter your life.

Children change adults lives. They can make you happy when you are sad. They always give you something to laugh about and it is very hard to stay mad at them. I love seeing my kids. My kids change my life. They teach me something new everyday.

This is why I am a teacher.

When you were 4 years old.

Can you even think back that far? For me the only reason I remember the age of 4 is because that is the year my brother was born and I became and big sister and also the same year I started taking dance classes.

It's entertaining to observe the four year olds I have in class. As a teacher its interesting to sit back and think...is this how I acted when I was little? Did I really believe in all those myths that Disney was telling me through those very popular Disney Princess' about true love, blah, blah, blah. I almost want to take these little girls by the hand and say, "Honey, I know that Ariel is all cool and everything and she totally grew legs and fell in love with a guy while having no voice...but in the real world you are going to have to work a lot harder than that to land your true love so just push all those fairy tale ideas out of your head."

Things are so simple in the eyes of a child. They play pretend and believe one day they will grow up to be a Princess. Playing house is fun. A child wants to collect as many baby dolls as possible and take care of them as their own. Dressing up is fun. High heels are comfortable. A huge tree can easily become your dream home.

Think about it. What were your favorite things to do when you were small? What did you dream of. Being around these kids keeps me young...allows me to remember what is important about being a child. One day they will figure out that they probably will never be a princess and "playing" house is actually really quite difficult and having lots of babies is not something you want to collect unless you desire to be Kate Gosslin and as for your dream home...well it very well may end up being a tree in this economy.

So until they grow up its sweet to watch them dream. I could never spoil those dreams for them now because that is what keeps everyone going...dreams of better days.

Teaching leaves little time for Blogging

It has been forever ago since I last had the time to sit down and actually record my thoughts. What I have realized is that teaching does in fact give me pleanty to analyze/think about but leave little time/energy for me to sit down and write about it.

So far I am enjoying teaching all of my classes. Going from teaching three classes last year on one night a week to teaching twenty one classes five days a week is quite and dramatic difference. I have a variety of personalities when it comes to my students. I usually always leave work at night with one good story to call home and make my mom laugh about. My favorite so far this year comes from one of my little four year olds who quite observantly noticed that my panty line was showing through my dance pants one day. In noticing this she decided to ask me in front of the rest of the class if I was still wearing diapers.....needless to say this was one of the moments where I didn't know if it was OK to burst out and laugh or try and seriously answer this eager students question.

Teaching is great. Keep me in shape and busy for sure. I have also lined up a couple side jobs just so I can make it in this "big girl world." I have found myself not so missing the school portion of college but more of the MC Life itself. Not being around all my closest girlfriends, prepapring for dance performances, and def. not practicing for Cornhuskin' especially during this time of the year! I have to say I miss seeing my friends but I am thankful to have a job. I know that eventually my body will catch up with the routine and realize that eating dinner at 10:00 is OK.

Welcome to the "Real World"

Welcome to my new life/apartment/adulthood.
As the month turns to August...many new things have began to take place
1. Rent (scary & not something fun to bring in a new month)
2. Bills
3. Job (lots of more kiddies & lots more classes)
4. NO COLLEGE CLASSES : )
5. Expanding on current relationships (making sure to always connect to the ones that matter since they are not so close anymore!)
6. New ROOMIE!


Thats all that is occurring at the moment, but the month is young.
I am really looking forward to all this newness...just hope I can afford it.
Literally.

Enjoy new pictures of the apartment!

Isn't she lovely

Yesterday my dear friend Katie Brown, now Katie Tompkins, was wed to Mr. Gregory Tompkins. I had the sweet opportunity to be a bridesmaid in the wedding and get to experience the wedding first hand. For it being the first wedding that I had ever actually been in, it was by far one of the most beautiful wedding. Katie and Greg have always been such a happy couple. It was so nice to see a couple so in love finally tie the knot. It gives us single girls faith that there are guys out there for us and one day we will have that dream wedding. Katie had her dream wedding yesterday, she married her dream guy, and she will forever live in love with Greg and never regret the decision she made to share her life with him. I am so happy for the couple and I look forward to my new found faith in men and weddings...maybe one day my dreams will come true too.

tears

When you think of tears you may think of sadness, but in my mind there are different types of tears:

happy tears: like when you find out your dance made the Gala performance for the first time ever
sobbing tears: when you hurt so much inside the only way to get rid of the pain is to sob
laughing tears: when you are laughing so hard at something/someone that you can't help but tear
mad tears: basically once you reach the limit of how pissed off you can be that you explode into tears
regular tears: the emotional starter. the ones you can't hold back no matter how hard you try

So why would I be talking about tears at a time like this? I am about to experience GRADUATION and my FINAL dance concert at Meredith! I should be soooooo happy! Yet when I look on the experience I experience many different tear symptom forms. I have diagnosed myself with all four cases. For example today writing out addresses for graduation announcements and not sending one to my grandmother, knowing how much she would have loved to see me graduate as well as possible perform for my very last time on stage. Its all bittersweet and I am sure that this weekend dancing with the seniors will bring tears to many peoples eyes.

So as the weeks go on I know to keep my tissues handy and my loved ones close, even if they are not as close as I would want them to be.

Thinking of you always Grandmother.