So in the last week I have returned to good ole Meredith College. Its been so refreshing to return to this place because of the memories that it holds. I don't honestly know what I'm going to do when I graduate because of the love that I have for this school. Most people could never say that they love going to school, but I live to come back to this place and would never leave if they didn't have to kick me out for the summer. I could never be more happier with my decision on coming here. I believe that there is no way that I could have ever had the experience in college that I hold here at Meredith, and the friendships are truly spectacular.
It's completely mind blowing to me that this is my junior year. Only two more years of school left and then its on to the big world. It makes me rethink a lot, makes me rethink my entire plan on life. Is the track that I am on now really what I want for the rest of not only my college career, but possibly my life. What happens now effects everything. How I do in school, the friendships I make, and the relationships I build off of. Is what I have in my life right now what I want forever? Lately I've been doing a lot of self thinking if you want to call it that. I've been playing out whats happening now in my life and applying it to possible long term means. Whats troubling me is that somethings I feel may need to change or be altered. I'm so unsure though.
I've been playing it out though, and for some reason my gut feelings are telling me to go with what I feel is best. Think about me...
Its so difficult because I always put others in my life first, especially those who are on close terms. Thinking about me just doesn't seem to happen. So now that I am, I'm actually scared to follow through. How do I know until I try.
Coming back to MC not only brings me back to classes, but to friendships that were left on pause, and relationships that are under construction. These are the last two years of my life, and its starting to scare me half to death because I want them to go by as slow as possible. I want to make all the right decisions and never regret anything that happens. So as classes begin on Wednesday here's my toast as I sit here and drink my glass of milk to an unforgettable year and to only make so many more memories than ever before. Here's to nothing but pure happiness.
