tears

When you think of tears you may think of sadness, but in my mind there are different types of tears:

happy tears: like when you find out your dance made the Gala performance for the first time ever
sobbing tears: when you hurt so much inside the only way to get rid of the pain is to sob
laughing tears: when you are laughing so hard at something/someone that you can't help but tear
mad tears: basically once you reach the limit of how pissed off you can be that you explode into tears
regular tears: the emotional starter. the ones you can't hold back no matter how hard you try

So why would I be talking about tears at a time like this? I am about to experience GRADUATION and my FINAL dance concert at Meredith! I should be soooooo happy! Yet when I look on the experience I experience many different tear symptom forms. I have diagnosed myself with all four cases. For example today writing out addresses for graduation announcements and not sending one to my grandmother, knowing how much she would have loved to see me graduate as well as possible perform for my very last time on stage. Its all bittersweet and I am sure that this weekend dancing with the seniors will bring tears to many peoples eyes.

So as the weeks go on I know to keep my tissues handy and my loved ones close, even if they are not as close as I would want them to be.

Thinking of you always Grandmother.

Amy & Kellie Day

So today was a Saturday and for once it was a free day in my life which is very rare. But I actually did not sit around in front of the TV, instead I spent the day active with my good friend Kellie. It was so refreshing to be out of the norm and just out enjoying the day. We spent our day apartment looking and talking about life plans over Chick-Fil-A followed by a very laid back photo shoot with Kellie's new favorite piece of furniture at Meredith College. Though our photo shoot was cut short due to battery failure in the camera, my favorite moment was sitting on that piece of furniture in an empty dance studio listening to Kellie try and recall just how to play all of her favorite tunes on the piano. Made me think about just how lucky I was to have met the people I had in college. Though Kellie and I really did not meet until last year, I was so lucky to have her as a friend and so amazed at how someone, like Kellie, could be so talented, sweet, and just an all around wonderful individual.
Later on we decided a good laugh was in need so we went to see "Date Night" and laughed like no other at this movie which did not turn out like we expected at all. Our laughs continued to our drive through man who just could not seem to operated his order screen. Kellie and I do not get many days together due to equally busy schedules that never seem to coincide so today for me was special.
"Date Night" had a very touching line, which is quite ironic considering it is in fact a comedy, but Steve Carell's character says to Tina Fey that he would do it all over again, their marriage, their kids and so on that she was worth it and he wouldn't even have to think twice about whether or not he would do it or not. I wouldn't have to think twice about the friends I have in my life now. Though some have faded, some friendships changed from hardships, and some were developed late, but yet all those people that I have met in college, like Kellie, are the friendships I would do all over again just to experience it again, just to have those moments back and treasure those precious moments that now are just precious memories. I feel like that it the most important thing that I will walk away from Meredith College with and though I wouldn't do the whole 4 years of actual college again, but I would totally do the whole 4 years of college life again.

One Month

There are 32 days left till graduation. 12 days of classes. Whoa.

With the madness of Danceworks hitting in full force this week, preparation for an audition for next weekend, and trying to find a place to live in grown up world...I can officially say I have hit the real world. Unbelievable.

This is the last chance to try and enjoy Meredith College...minus all the work I have to complete and enjoy my time with my friends. Time has truly flown by. Let us all say a little prayer for all of us seniors to make it through the next 4 weeks.