The holidays are here and this is the time to hold friends and family near. I spent the other day with my great grandmother who is very sick. Every time I come home I have to see her. It was one of the most memorable visits that I have ever had with her and one I will never forget. Christmas Eve is a time spent with my mom's family at my great grandmother's house and this will be the first year it won't happen. I am not upset about it because I knew there wasn't a possible way that it could happen, but it still will be yet another change I am having to accept.
Speaking of changes, there seem to be a lot of those happening in my life lately. I have one more semester left in college (ah!), I have to decide on a career and place of residence in six months (eek!), my brother has a girlfriend who he spends all his time with (what!?), one of my best girl friend's from high school is getting engaged (seriously?)....need I go on. I've been told I'm not good with change and I have come to agree with this. I am more of the type of person who makes the plan and sticks with the plan. My plans for my senior year of college........ptffff NO WHERE near what I expected. But....I have decided that's OK. Fate is a funny thing. Some of my plans have followed through...just in the least expected way possible.
So these new changes in my life. I've gotta accept them and roll with them. I've realized reconnecting with people that have fallen out of my life has given me a new perspective...a good one. I find myself questioning why I ever let them fall out of my life? Spending time with old friends and your family allow you to realize who you once were. That's the nice part. Realizing who you were and who you are now. It is like a second chance to choose who you want to be in life and how you want people to perceive you. It's my new motivation.
So tomorrow I am taking this new motivation to have lunch with my three bff's from high school. We labeled ourselves the Fab 4. I mean we were pretty famous...haha. We have fallen out of contact as the four of ourselves so it should be interesting as well as nice to see how it goes. it could be something we all need to realize a lot about our current lives. I'll keep you posted. ; )
